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It's been 9 months since I've come here, Germany.

leaving aside of my workstyle, it's so much more cozy and comfortable to be here than expected.
I feel people itself, their lifestyle and social network in here is sophisticated.

The below Adoer's quote always comes up to my mind.

"Cause of any failure in life, is that they think only their own things."

"All of the trouble is an issue of interpersonal relationship."

"it's always easier to fight for one’s principles than to live up to them."

"Meanings are not determined by situations, but we determine ourselves by the meanings we give to situations."

"No experience is a cause of success or failure. We do not suffer from the shock of our experiences, so-called trauma – but we make out of them just what suits our purposes."

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money is not like mushrooms in a forest.
it doesn't pop up on its own.
I have to think about that and take action before the time comes.
No two ways about it.

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what the hell I am doing here...don't waste time..
I'll return to nature, like his movie, someday.
Don't waste time grieving over past mistakes.

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"I have not failed. I've just found 10,000 ways that won't work."
By Thomas Edison

He's been given kudos for work well-done, esp in the sience part.
However, im sure he shows results whatever he does.

One day

I ask someone that.

You catch some beautiful view, like sunset from a beach, starry sky in country side, alone.

If you have loved one, how do you tell it to him or her?

If you're good at painting, you'll express it on a canvas?

If you have a latest single-lens reflex camera, you'll take a picture?

However, he or she answer to me like this.

"I've changed"

"After I catch some beautiful sunset or starry sky and get moved,

I show someone that I've changed"

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In an effort to cut corners, I pack my own lunch and take it to work recently.

It sounds funny.

Imagine that I grab rice and press it hard to make rice balls in the early morning.

I didn't expect to get into a desparate situation.

My life is average.

bungee jumping

Charles Darwin

『It is not the strongest
of the species that survives,
nor the most intelligent that survives.
It is the one
that is the most adaptable to change.』
Charles Darwin

It's the most impactive word of wisdom I've ever met.
I think of nothing better than it.

U2 - City Of Blinding Lights

love it
must check it out

Bleak employment situation

I got into job-hunting mode.

It seem to get worse than I
expected.

I am gonna take active steps to find employment,

but not entirely spent job hunting.

Getting job is not my real goal, just means to acheive it.

I wish everyone gd luck in your job-hunting

It's getting close to the end of the year

It's been 3months since I came back to the reality, life in Japan.


I feel the timd went by so surprisingly fast.



Hey, everybody


It's a time to consider the record of the past year.

extraordinary time n experience in ur life

long time no see.
I've been sick n so in a rush that i forgot my birthday.
I want to cherish my extraordinary time and experience in my diary life.
my stay in Montreal might be my extraordinary thing in my life.

don't be scared.
escape from tepid, lukewarm water.




http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xwMufuLauEw&feature=youtube_gdata

Smoke

I am a smoker.

I have to figure out cigarette's danger n risk.
However, I mean the influence cause the other.

A lit ciggarette is carried at the height of a child's face.
we carry a 700 degree fire in my hand with people walking around me.

Hum...

Snap out of it.

I always used to think that I'd like to stay seventeen forever if I could.

Humm, to tell you the truth, even now...sometimes.....unconciously.

However, not anymore.

I'm going to be an adult.
I'm going to mature.
I'm going to keep on getting stronger.

I have to get stronger for everyone.
Although it's still difficult for me to overcome it, everything will be fixed and is on the mend.

Snap out of it!!!!!!!!
Snap out of it!!!!!!!!!!
Snap out of it!!!!!!!!!!!!

Olga

She finally came back to Montreal.

I have been sick for these days. I have a bad cough from a cold.
I can't breath well as if my two lungs disappeared.
Why???? Why did I catch a f**king cold and feel like that???

Because I slept as naked as my mother bore me??

No,, Someone I lost before came back to Montreal to make up my half of hole???

It must be....

Hey!!!!! You also have to back here to overcome my cold and bring Summer to Montreal!!!!!!

Anyway, I'm really glad and happy to see her again.

What's your motto?

"Mind if I give you one piece of advice?"

"Sure, go ahead"

"Don't feel sorry for yourself," he said. "Only assholes do that"

It's been 5 years since I met my Bible, Norwegian Wood.

Don't feel sorry for yourself.

Oka beach

I went to Oka Park to get tanned, barbecue, play with hot girls ,and enjoy the rest of my stay with two 26-year-old men who are old goats and six 16-year-old girls.

16 years old????????

I didn't know that before.
Somehow I felt I did something wrong or turned to crime.....haha



Anyway, I had great time thanks to them.
Hum I feel I 'm getting old....... They were so energetic.

What did I do when I was 16...?

Chai-latte with a book

I commute from YMCA to Presse Cafe after school.
I spend 3 hours reading books with hot chai-latte.
Finally, I go back to YMCA to work out in Gym.
This is my new life, routine.


When I took out earphone, I happened to catch the music I had listened just before, "I'm yours" from BGM.
I grinned with a few little nods unconsciously.

my life is average.

Under Pressure '09

I participated in International Graffiti Competition, Under Pressure ,last weekend.
It was beyond description.
I could see many beautiful, cool graffiti in there.
Besides this, various street artist expressed their art everywhere, such breakdancers, skateboarders, and DJs.
Their faces shone with delight as if the birds fly freely in the sky.
I want to be like them..

Why am I here?

During the last few weeks, and days of my stay in Montreal, I would recognize to back the reality.

When I hanged out with my friends last night, I couldn't focus on chatting. I was just drinking beer as if the water flowed into the drain.
My friends must have thought that I was daydreaming about butt......haha

Actually, I needed time to think about unsolved, complicated things.
One of them was to recall why I came here, Montreal.
As the day I will back the reality is getting near, I started thinking about that automatically.

While, I might have wanted to confirm that my decision was wrong or not.


There are three reasons to come here to study English.

One is the leisure of my life. It's not tongue-in-cheek and wisecrack.
I'm serious.
When I was in Japan, my life was in a rush and intense ,but I was really comfortable and satisfied about my environment, like Yamaguchi seminar.
However, I was flooded with just another information, and there was no room to input something in my brain.
so I needed to take a rest or fresh to be droughty and thirsty for something new.

In other words, I escaped from the reality.


Also, I wantedto build up my own sense of value. Of course I didn't intend to go against the flow, also didn't intend to go with the flow.
Indeed, I met many students who study English to get a good job, but I just only wanted totalk to people who have different culture, behavior, and sense of value to build up mine.


Finally, before I came here, I studied hard just one field, accounting. However, we have to keep studying forever even if we graduate from University and all field around accounting connect each other closely, I noticed, so I want to get MBA to expand my horizon and unlimited possibility.


I have just a little less than a month.
I will not only challenge as usual, but also look back my footprint and achievment......

MLIA.